日志
I am so pathetic ~~~~~~~~~~~crying
sometimes i just feel myself pathetic ,locked myself in an empty room and i feel lonely ,no calls no ture friends ,everybody just forget me.my mind began to wandering around .looking back , i found my relationship with anybody never longer than two weeks. i can't help hating myself ,maybe its not all my fault ,but i just feel myself like a bitch !most of time i let a guy fuck me not because i like him but because i'm lonely. i just need some acompany.. so i did it with any guy without love !! this is me ,,i don't remember since when i became such a emotionless monster, but what's the other choice!?if i stick to "sex with love "maybe i will still be a virgin when i die !! maybe its not so hard to find ture love ,i am just not so lucky to find my love...
!!!when i say love it may mean sextual attracted ~ we all can't deny that ironically love is based on sex ! we all have a critical eye for beauty!!!